Friday, January 25, 2013
Midlife Crisis Ahead...
It is painfully obvious the years are ticking away. With LB turning 13, we have no kids. That's a tough milestone. We have one adult child (20), and now three teens (17, 15, and 13). Dang, we're getting old.
Doc H is busier than ever. I am demanding (well, at least asking every day this week for some dates which the hospital could survive without him) a vacation in March. His schedule is just burying me in self-pity right now. Between the OR, clinic, admin duties, the start-up, a study he's working on, work with a association (he's on the board)..... yada yada yada.... it's been too much, all at once, and for too long. There's simply not enough time in the day to talk to each other. I want (need?) some time to reconnect. I need a few days where I don't have to compete with the hospital, colleagues, or medicine for his time or attention.
Moreover, I'm sitting home stressing over our budget while he's surfing Craig's List for furniture and newer version of Bessie, our 16 year old minivan. Next year we will be paying OODLES in tuition: two college, one private high school, and one private middle school. Tuition will continue increasing the following three years before we hit a decline. It is feasible we will have three college tuitions at the same time. THIS is killing me. It makes my butt pucker and upsets my GI system. I'm pinching pennies. I exchanged a bunch of my Christmas gifts for a coat and was excited I received a $40 credit to my credit card. I think I've turned cheap. I didn't even buy any of the shoes that were on sale.
I'm afraid I may be terribly ill.